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Fri, 25 Dec 2009 05:59:17 GMT

Today my boss called me an alcoholic. I told him I hadn't been drunk in a couple of years until I started this job. He said "yeah, I'm an alcoholic because of this job too." It's nice to know that I'm in good company.

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 19:50:29 GMT

There are too many things holding me in place.

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 18:33:52 GMT

Got drunk with Tori. Fought with my ex-boyfriend over stupid shit and his brother. Ruined my buzz. Cried to my sister about everything in my life for a couple of hours. Got Starbucks and Shipley's. Passed out. Woke up three hours later than intended. Currently hating my life.

I'm just wondering why when I try to better my life things just tend to build up and get worse.

Sat, 02 May 2009 14:53:26 GMT

What the fuck happened to all of us?

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 18:30:57 GMT

Fat Tuesday tonight. Anyone up for it?

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 09:21:33 GMT

In the process of dying my hair blond. Also in the process of not giving a shit about what anyone thinks.

Both are going rather well.

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 15:38:40 GMT

Partied 'til the sun came up. Ruined someone's engagement. Got hit on by more than 10 guys. Owned at beer pong. So, the usual.

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 00:59:01 GMT

Some pictures from the Halloween parties. I'd post more but I'm lazy.

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 05:06:55 GMT

I did that thing again, where I get a guy to fall in love with me. I'm really beginning to hate this shit.

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 07:31:40 GMT

JD (22:48:24): whatever, go hop the fence and go back to your homeland
JD (22:48:32): i know your mexican
abortion ftw (22:48:41): you're
JD (22:48:46): you said gracias earlier
abortion ftw (22:49:03): mainly because I hoped you would catch on sooner to that
abortion ftw (22:49:07): but you failed
abortion ftw (22:49:09): miserably
JD (22:49:12): lol
JD (22:49:35): no, i just decided to be nice, and not call you out on your embarrasing heritage
JD (22:49:49): i see how it wasnt appreciated
JD (22:50:22): at all
JD (22:50:40): im gonna come hang out with you and drive you to the ins
abortion ftw (22:50:49): you should
abortion ftw (22:51:20): I'm sorry that I'm not from your superb arian race
JD (22:51:25): lol
JD (22:51:29): yeah, most people are
abortion ftw (22:51:36): I actually AM
abortion ftw (22:51:40): diss at you
JD (22:52:33): lol
JD (22:52:41): im more arian
JD (22:52:45): i win
JD (22:52:46): PASS
abortion ftw (22:53:00): I'm pretty sure arian's weren't homosexuals
abortion ftw (22:53:03): which by the way
abortion ftw (22:53:07): is now okay in the military
JD (22:53:11): oh
JD (22:53:16): well why else would i join
JD (22:53:20): theres dudes everywhere
abortion ftw (22:53:29): it's like a kid in a candy shop
abortion ftw (22:53:34): that doesn't have diabetes yet
JD (22:53:37): lolll
JD (22:53:49): just like you in taco bell
JD (22:54:05): or the lawn mower shop
abortion ftw (22:54:11): I'm a woman
abortion ftw (22:54:16): I pop out babies
abortion ftw (22:54:17): and clean
abortion ftw (22:54:19): god damn it
JD (22:54:22): lol
JD (22:54:31): sorry
JD (22:54:39): youre right
JD (22:54:42): for once
JD (22:54:44): wierd

JD (23:04:43): yeah but i remember when you told me i had a bad memory
JD (23:04:47): so i decided to change
JD (23:04:51): for you
abortion ftw (23:04:54): that was very thoughtful
abortion ftw (23:05:00): which is why I'm pretty sure you're gay
JD (23:05:03): LOL
JD (23:05:17): na, i like chicks
JD (23:05:23): just like you do
abortion ftw (23:05:34): I can't help it
abortion ftw (23:05:37): they're hot
abortion ftw (23:05:38): okay
abortion ftw (23:05:44): if guys were as hot as most chicks
abortion ftw (23:05:52): I'd be a lot more hetero
JD (23:05:54): lol
JD (23:06:06): what you meant to say was
JD (23:06:14): if most guys were as hot as jd
JD (23:06:21): then id be more hetero
abortion ftw (23:06:29): so
JD (23:06:33): but thats fine
JD (23:06:38): you must be tired
abortion ftw (23:06:39): I really don't think you have the right to say you're straight
abortion ftw (23:06:50): when you have a video of you singing alicia keys
JD (23:06:54): LOL
JD (23:07:00): touche to that
JD (23:07:02): touche
abortion ftw (23:07:23): self incrimination
JD (23:07:28): hahaha
JD (23:07:33): id forgotten about that
abortion ftw (23:07:42): I'd try to forget about that too
JD (23:07:45): lol
JD (23:07:53): you watched that
abortion ftw (23:07:59): I watched like half of it
abortion ftw (23:08:04): but my ears started to bleed
abortion ftw (23:08:07): so I had to turn it off
JD (23:08:10): and it overwhelmed you
JD (23:08:20): and you had to start pleasuring yourself then and there
JD (23:08:26): i know i know, ive heard it all before
abortion ftw (23:08:33): I'm sure you haven't.
abortion ftw (23:08:39): unless you were talking to a black guy
JD (23:08:54): lol
JD (23:08:56): that it was
JD (23:09:08): your future husband
JD (23:09:11): tyrese
abortion ftw (23:09:24): tyrone
abortion ftw (23:09:27): thank you very much
JD (23:09:31): lol
JD (23:09:37): sorry, they all look the same
abortion ftw (23:09:43): I know
abortion ftw (23:09:50): I slept with his brother once
abortion ftw (23:09:56): because it was dark
abortion ftw (23:10:02): and all I could see were the eyes and teeth
JD (23:10:04): lol
JD (23:10:06): LOL
JD (23:10:08): so bad
abortion ftw (23:10:12): I'm going to hell for this
abortion ftw (23:10:13): I know
JD (23:10:16): hahaha

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 15:50:29 GMT

My pride tends to get in the way of every relationship I've ever had. Friendships and others. What a fucking annoying realization.

Oh, but in other news. I'm dating a very very good looking guy. Like, gorgeous. It's fucking ridiculous.

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 10:05:31 GMT

Costume party season again.

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 13:20:17 GMT

No, that isn't love, that's just called insecurity.

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 09:33:54 GMT

I need some advice about which quote I should get tattooed on my side.

The course of true love never did run smooth.

It's not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.

A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave.

Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.

The other night I was laying in bed with a friend trying to fall asleep, it was one of those "sleep-overs" where we kept saying "are you asleep?" We stayed up for hours talking about the most random things and pouring out our hearts, it was one of the most welcoming things. I haven't had that in such a long time. It might have been with the last person I expected it to be but it was nice. I've been coming to terms with a lot of things lately. I've realized how selfish I really am. I've noticed when people tell me stories about their lives I feel the need to jump in with something of mine, I used to do this so I could relate to them, but now I'm realizing that I do it because I want the conversation to steer towards me. I'm not really all to blame though. I mean, honestly, I have some really shitty friends and have for quite some time. I don't think I've really opened up to anyone since I took Allison out of my life. I still stand by that judgment. I'm thinking of the people I've let get closest to me in the last couple of years, and I'm left with Christina, David, Kayla, Chris, Tori, Mat, and Lantz. I only talk to four of those people, two of which I don't talk to as much as I'd really like. Of the people I don't talk to, all the friendships started out great. Christina, who I still talk to from time to time, betrayed my trust and told half the school some rumors and that I had lost my virginity, something so personal that no one should tell anyone. Which ended our friendship. I've since gotten over this, because we were both really young and foolish. Now with Kayla, I honestly just don't know what the fuck is wrong with that girl. Anyone who is willing to lie about having cancer is fucking ridiculous. Honestly, what the hell. Half my family has died from cancer, you just don't tell your "best friend" that you have cancer because I wasn't picking up your phone calls every five minutes. Never the less, basically calls me a whore and tells me that I don't really suffer from depression. Which is fucking ridiculous. I think the reason we got along so well, is both because we're so very fucked up mentally. I love her, I do. I wish her the best in her life and with whatever she chooses to do, but I don't want her back in my life. With David, I really don't have anything bad to say about him honestly, he's a great guy, who's always been there for me when I'd actually let him. I think I just seriously fucked our friendship with how I am with people. But I mean, with most of these people, it's always been about what they need to talk about, what's going wrong in their life, and no one has really been there for me in the longest time. Not that I really let many people, but the few I do, don't seem to give a shit anymore. I mean, I'm slowly crawling out of my depression, and only one person has really helped me with it and that's Tori. I mean, I told a lot of people what was going on with me, and why I've been acting the way I have been, and all they give a shit about is me being there for them. I honestly can't give you 100% when I can't even give myself 10%. Anyway, I'm done with my rant. I just wish more people honestly cared about others.

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 09:51:52 GMT

It was all fun and games until you got drunk and poured your heart out to me.

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 22:26:25 GMT

I'm moving to New York. I'm living by myself. Going to college. Do the things I've been wishing I would do for the last few years. I'm going to miss a lot of my friends, but I'm hoping some of them will come up to visit me on vacations and what not. If not, I'm not going to sweat it. Some people are better left behind. I'm slowly slipping out of my depression, which is very very good. I'm starting to feel like my old self. I think it's because I'm surrounding myself with all my old friends from when I was much happier. A few of them already said they'll come up to visit me. I'm hoping they do. I'm growing up. I'm tired of being around people who do drugs and drink constantly because they're not happy with themselves or the lives they're living. Just a brief update. I have things to pack and one of my favorite people in the world is about to be here. I hope all is well for everyone else. Let me know what's up!

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 09:29:51 GMT

Today would have been one year.

"Every time I get on the livejournal I think, "maybe I shouldn't type that, I don't really think I want to jinx things." I'm just going to say that I think it's really cute how you offer to go get my best friend from a party in Pasadena and take her home when we're all the way in La Porte."

Happy Anniversary.

Sat, 31 May 2008 10:31:13 GMT

I never know what you want from me.

Sun, 04 May 2008 07:29:20 GMT

I must be a really shitty friend since my best friend of 15 years didn't even call to wish me a happy birthday. But whatever, I had a great birthday, with some really great friends. I hope everyone is doing well.

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 09:21:10 GMT

I'm a strong believer in fate. I believe that there is a reason for everything that happens in your life. As horrible as I think things are right now in mine, I have to believe that it's for the right reasons. I want to grow up as an individual. I do not want the actions and opinions of other's to dictate my life. Though I do take all of the opinions of the people who I hold dear into consideration. I feel like this is the right time to change and start over from a blank slate. I feel like the changes that I'll be making in the next few weeks will be a good start to bettering myself and discovering who I really am as an individual. I've spent too many years of my life relying on other people to help me find out who I am, and I feel like this is the best time, if any, to start figuring it out for myself. Although I'm not proud of the things I've done in my past, I feel like they've helped me realize somewhat who I want to be, and who I should never again become. If it wasn't for who I was back then, these possibilities would have never come into play. How do you know that someone you meet briefly one night, won't come back into your life years later and make an impact so strong that you can barely stand on your feet? I'm going to take the opportunity to get myself back on track with my life. It took one breakdown and heartfelt conversation to make me really understand everything that has been going on in my life. I'm just hoping that maybe one day the people that I hurt in this discovery will understand why.

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 04:24:37 GMT

This Sunday is the first Sunday I've had off in 4 months, and instead of sleeping in like I should be, I plan on going out and getting mauled by emus and other various large animals. Because it sounds like the thing to do. So if anyone wants to join me, it's 14 dollars, and I'm leaving at 10 am, so let me know. Pony rides are available, if you're into that kind of thing. Here are some pictures if you're wondering what you're getting yourself into.

I managed to finally get a new mattress, which I've been needing to do for months. It has memory foam in it so it's extremely comfortable, best night sleep ever.

I would also like to state that Chris and I are going on 8 months, which is 3/4 of a year, or 75%. My math teachers would be impressed. Be happy for me

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 07:57:13 GMT

6 months.

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 08:15:51 GMT

Nugget!

7.6 lb.
12 months.
long hair chihuahua - terrier mix.

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 03:50:57 GMT

I got a puppy!

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 23:44:02 GMT

Allison and I learned how to break into a car today.